Listening to My Soul (And Where We Go From Here)
May 2025 Edition
A few weeks ago, I made a quiet decision: aside from sharing occasional podcast clips (to honor the beautiful collaborations I’m part of), I won’t be posting on social media anymore.
I first started an account back in 2020 because I felt like I should.
I’m not very good with "shoulds," but I thought maybe it was important to try.
This is what I do sometimes: I try something on — even when I know deep down it’s not for me — just to be sure.
Eventually, I circle back to my truth: no, not for me.
Social media has never felt natural.
It’s never made sense to the introverted part of me.
It’s like walking into a party that never ends, where everyone is talking at the same time.
Even though much of what’s shared is good and meaningful, I struggle to stay fully myself in that space.
Being there asks something I'm simply not built for.
I remember telling someone with a large platform a few years ago,
"I haven’t figured out a way to be on social media authentically."
She replied, "No one has."
And something about that answer stayed with me, quietly gnawing.
When I finished my book proposal and signed with an agent, publishers were interested.
They felt something when they read my writing.
But when they looked at my platform size, it became a dealbreaker — even for publishers who specialize in spiritual books.
So I outlined a plan to build my platform.
And guess what? None of it interested me.
There were good ideas — but I have a full life, and the platform wasn’t where I wanted to put my time or energy.
So I pulled back and reassessed — not just the platform, but the book itself, and how I want to move through the world.
What I Remembered:
When something is aligned with the Universe, it finds its way.
It always has.
It took me years to create a website.
Most of my work has come through word of mouth — through energy, through the quality of presence I bring — not through marketing.
I remember telling Lair when we first started our practices:
"I can spend money on business cards and websites, but I have a feeling marketing isn’t how people will find me."
Even then, with no clients yet, I trusted my intuition — my energy would be my invitation.
Still, as the world changed, the message became: you have to be on social media to grow, to succeed, to do things "the right way."
And truthfully, social media has helped me in some ways.
It’s how I shared my “Finding Magic in the Mundane” class.
It’s how I met incredible humans — some of you, who have become friends, collaborators, and soul family.
It’s not all bad.
But if I’m honest, social media taught me even more about who I am not.
The more I tried it on, the louder the "no" inside me became.
I lived with tension — one foot in, the rest of me out.
Even as it dysregulated me, my inner critic would say,
"If only you did _____..."
And I would feel the sharp edge of not-enoughness.
But my soul would whisper:
"Journal. Walk in the forest. Talk to your flowers. Go to the ocean."
I long for quiet spaces, because that’s where I meet my heart.
That’s where my soul speaks to me — not in the noise.
After moving to Costa Rica — where life is so much quieter — I noticed it even more.
Opening Instagram started giving me stomach aches.
The chaos in my body got louder.
So, I made the decision to stop.
And in the quiet that followed, I heard myself more clearly than I had in a long time.
The relief and peace I feel in my decision?
It’s extraordinary.
And in the quiet, I feel more creative than ever.
The Truth Is:
I’m never going to love being in front of the camera.
I’m never going to get excited about designing Canva templates just to create posts.
I’m never going to want to post several times a day or week just to beat the algorithm.
It’s simply not who I am — and that’s okay.
Some people are naturally energized by the spotlight and the platforms that come with it, and I love that we all have our own ways of shining.
We are not all meant to be the same.
I Know Now:
I love writing this newsletter and want to do it more often.
I feel lit up and grateful when you write back and share your reflections.
I want to build a more intimate community — starting right here.
I'm exploring different ways to deepen our connection, listening carefully for how my soul wants to create it.
I’m continuing to write my book — not by force, but by following the energy of what feels true.
Maybe it will be published by a big house; maybe it will grow quietly in other ways.
Either way, I trust it will find its way into the hands it’s meant for.
Because when I take soul-aligned action, what’s meant for me will find me.
Pushing through things that don't feel alive or authentic is the worst thing I can do for my energy.
I'm meant to follow what lights me up.
So here I am, making my own way.
And I’m so grateful you're here with me.
A horse, the ocean — my ❤️!
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SOUL ECHOES
✨ Where in your life is your soul inviting you to honor your own rhythm, even if the world moves faster?
✨ What feels like relief in your body when you imagine letting it go?
✨ What rules are you ready to break in service of becoming more yourself?
✨ What is calling to you quietly beneath the shoulds and expectations?
✨ Where does your energy spark alive, without force, without pushing?
✨ What would happen if you trusted the quiet yes inside you more than the noise around you?
This is an invitation to explore with curiosity. Trust what comes. The soul speaks first—before the mind rushes in to make sense of it.
